Just now I received a call from my sister, she told me today is her boyfriend aunty birthday and she cannot bring me to church tonight. She also says she forgot to tell me that today she is busy tonight. Actually, I think the case like this always happened but I really don’t know why every time I heard my sis told me she don’t want or cannot go to church I will feel angry and sometimes also disappointed. I will feel disappointed because sometimes she said she feel sleepy she don’t want to go and she only send me go to church. I only know that every time I know she don’t want to go to church; I always think an idea so that my sis will go to church. However, the idea that I think is not the best and every time I just give up the idea only. Every time when it happened, I only can do a thing which is felt angry at there. I always think why I always had this feeling. Is it due to I am too holy?? Or still got other reasons??? After I think for a long time this may be due to I really want to become a priest in future and this may be the omen form the god calling me to become the priest. I think may be some days when I really cannot bear, I may be use the idea that I had thought before. Now, I only can pray to god so that my sis will continue go to church for praise the god again and the fester idea that I think may not be use…….
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