Change- this word I have seen
many times in recent newspaper. The reason I will saw this word is due to the
election is coming soon. However, today I would like to share is not about the
coming election. It is about the changes of me. I found out that there were
some changes for me in the past few months.
First is my lifestyle. What have
changes in my lifestyle?? At the end of last year, I have decided to take CPA
Program. I never think of it CPA Program have changed my lifestyle. I still
remember before I take CPA Program, my lifestyle is work, play and church
activities. During that time, I have a lot of time for doing my personal things
especially attend or organising church activities. After I start my CPA
Program, I found out that I have not enough time to use. This may be due to my
time management problem. Besides that, after I take the CPA Program I found out
that my burden has started to increase. This is because now I not only busy in
my job and church activities I also need to spend some of the time for doing
revision.
Next is my workload. After Chinese
New Year, I found out that my workload has also increased. I know why my
workload increased, the mainly reason is last year I was new to the company and
starting this year I can consider as one’s of the junior. Since my position was
upgraded from new to junior, therefore my workload will also increase and the
difficultly in my work will also increase.
Third is my church activity. I found out that I have a lot of activities
need to attend or organize in this few months. Sometime, I have think of it why
I so busy? Is it due to my performance was much better than other persons or
too active therefore I will be assigned a lot “work”? Now almost every Sunday I have lot activities
need to attend and I also have to organize a camp for children between 10 years
old to 12 years old. Moreover, I found out that now I have met a lot of
challenges when I guide for a group of children especially when other advisor's not attending the meeting. Besides that, I can feel that my burden have
increasing when I know that other advisor's plan to pass the children for me to
guide.
Lastly is my leadership skill. When
I start to organize the camp last week, I found out that my leadership skill has
gone. I start to do the thing without think properly and sometime I start can’t
make the final decision. Sometime, I need to rely on other people to help me to
do the decision and I keep changing on the decision that I have made. I will realize
this has happened to me is due to a case happened yesterday. Yesterday, I just
call the priest without think properly and ask some stupid questions that
requested by other people to me. At the end, I have made the priest feel
unhappy. Why this will happen? I really don’t know the reason. Is it due to I have become follower too long
or my capability is really limited? All the successful that I have in the past,
is it due to I have a group of friends which always help me? Or really due to the
case that has happened in December last year have made me start losing my
confident?
The only thing that has not
change is my relationship with her. My relationship with her is still the same
which is friend only. I think there was no change in my relationship with her
is due to I not really take actions to chase her or my actions is not good
enough. Anyway, I will not give up easily even though I guess the chance to
success may be low.
I hope that I will overcome all
the challenges that I met now especially in my confident or leadership skill. So
that, I not only able successfully organizes the camp but also can give a
wonderful memory to the participants. Furthermore, I hope that I able do well
in my next month CPA exam.
