CHOICE

Choice - This was a special word for me during this week. This is because I found out that our life was full of choice especially for me in this week. The reasons I think like this are due to this week I formally rejected by her. She has chosen a guy who is also my close friend in church. At the time I knew, I really feel unhappy at first but after I cool down and think about it I think she might do the right choice. This is because I know that my friend will be good to her, protect her and like her as much as his can while I might not able as him. I found out I always put church activities as my first choice besides my job. After that, I really start feel happy for her and wish her and my friend will be happy always. However, I have met one problem which I need to do my choice.  The problem is shall I continue to like her or I shall forget her as soon as possible. My heart told me that I won’t forget her so fast because in my heart she really is a good girl. 

The second reason is about whether to tell the truth. In the legion mary that I have join, one’s of the brother has not attend the weekly meeting and all the activities for more than 2 months. I has received a call from his grandmother in Thursday, she has ask me whether her grandson got attend the legion mary meeting and activities. At that time, I plan to tell her the truth but I found out that the brother has lies to his grandmother that he had attend the Sunday mass and legion mary meeting every weekend. During the talks with his grandmother, I also found out that his grandmother really feel worry to her grandson. She afraid his grandson will become bad. At that time, I really don’t know whether I should tell her about it or not because if I tell her about it she will angry and she might hit her grandson and I can guarantee that the brother will not come to church and join legion mary again. If I not tell her the truth, if the brother really become bad I can’t responsible for it and I might destroy the brother future. At the end, I have choose to tell the grandmother that he has not come to legion mary for 2 months and I don’t see him in Sunday mass within this period.

Lastly, is the choice of my future. Shall I continue my study to professional level? I really don’t know whether shall I register for CPA and sit for the exam or not in the coming semester. Until today, I still can’t take decision because I afraid after I register for it I don’t have enough time to study as most of the time I spend it in my church activity and job.  Anyway, I hope that I able do the right choice no matter in my relationship, church and personal problems with the help of the GOD.

Sharing

Last weekend, I have joined a conference organized by Sibu Chinese Legion Mary. The conference was organized at Dalat, Sarawak and I was ones of the organizing committee. At first, I would like to joins the organizing committee due to the invitation of chairperson. For me, this conference just likes the conference that I have organized before when I study at Swinburne Sarawak. The reason I have feeling like mainly due to I was the quartermaster for the conference. By truth, I really don’t understand why I always have the fate with the quartermaster post for most of the events that I have organized.

During the process of organizing this conference, I started feel disappointed with the organizing team.  This is because I feel most of them did not really put their heart in organizing this conference. Some of the organizers never attend the meetings or do their tasks that assigned by the chairpersons. They only started to do their tasks when the conference is near at the corner.  

Four days before the conference start, I have been assigned by my manager to work at outstation. During the few days at outstation, I really feel worry for them because until that time we still have a lot of tasks need to do. As an example: our conference booklet still in progress, the participants name list still to be confirmed and many others. The thing that makes me feel very angry is when I come back to Sibu, I notice that they did not prepare anything for the welcoming dinner even though they have done most of the things.

However, I have started change my point of view to them during the conference. I really feel surprised when I saw most of them become very serious when the conference was held. They really worked very hard and some of them really scarify their sleeping time just for preparing next day activities.  At that time, I have understood that everything’s is arranged by God. We will never know what God has arranged for us. 

Besides this, through this conference I also found back the fire in my heart. In this conference, I found out that I still love to become altar servers. I have left the guild since 2 years ago and I have rejected my guild president and his committee for going back to guild in this few months. I still remember in this few months I have find a lot of reasons to reject them. However, when I attend the mass in the conference, all the feeling has suddenly coming back and I suddenly feel like want to become altar server again. Furthermore, I also have found back the things that I have learned when I become committee in CPA Australia Student Charter in Swinburne Sarawak.

Lastly, I found out that I have found the girl that I have like in this conference. At first, I just admire her because she has a sweet smile, helpful heart and the most important is she is a good girl for me. Now, I have planned to pursue her because I think she is the girl that I want it in my heart and I hope that I will success to pursue her because she is the first girl that able to make me take action.

Words in my heart

Wow…time passed so fast! It comes to the month of May.  I just realized that I have not updated my blog for around 3 months. I still remember the reasons I start to write this blog, the reasons are improve my English and sharing. However, I don’t share much things especially my personal matters in this blog.

Today, I would like to share the word in my heart. This month is the third months that I start my new life which is society life. During these months, I have met lot things and I have a lot of feeling want to share but I don’t know who the right person I should share with its. In my working places, I have saw a lot of people resign within these months and some of them who are more close to me also plan to resign as they think the work is too much and the company only paid low salary to them and some of them just sub their works to other people. This make them can’t finish their works and they need do free overtime. I can feel that the feeling in my working place is not good, which this also affect my working mood.  

Next, is my life in my church. Since, I had rejoined the church movements I found that I can’t have the life that I want anymore. What is my life that I want in my church? It is very easy, I only want to become the member only, I don’t want to become any committee anymore! I have rejoined altar servers that I had left it one year ago and after I rejoined the matter that I don’t want had come which one of the senior asked me to join the senior committee. Besides that, in Legion Mary I have been assigned to organize Easter party at 9 April and help them to organize a conference. At first, I think this is ok for me however, I have started received stress from the advisor as he want to start to become leader again after I have success organized the Easter party and today I have received a call that there are one church activity at June, they have asked me to help. The most interesting is I don’t know the organizers. This totally not the life that I want!! I only want to become a member and just join any activities if I free.

Lastly, are my personal matters. In these months, I still meet one problem which is I still not dare to drive the car. I need to depend my family to fetch me to work, church even meet my friends! This had made me very inconvenience as I can’t go out as I want and my parents will ask me not to go.  I really don’t know why I will feel nervous and afraid once I want start to drive. Thanks god that I finally make my first step to drive at around my house areas in 1 May, but the afraid and nervous feeling still in my heart. I hope that this will be good start for me. Moreover, my brother had started working this year. Sometimes, my mum asks me to let my brother to do the things he wants so that he will not resign.  As an example, I need depart to office a little big late (still can arrive office on time) so that he will not arrive his office too early! This will make me feel unfair as I have my on jobs to do so that I need go office earlier.

Furthermore, I also miss my university life very much especially few week ago my friends have make gathering together to help other friends to celebrate birthday.  I really miss my university life because during the time we always have fun together such as play dota, have lunch and dinner, attend class, join club, organized club activities, go to Macdonald or lok lok at midnight time and many others. I think that all the words in my heart that I want to share it! I really don’t know want to share these with who, so I choose to share it at here!  

BPL Manager of the month (February)

Arsenal FC Manager Arsene Wenger awarded manager of the month for February by Barclay Premier League. This is the 12th time Arsene Wenger received the Barclay Manager of the month award in his career as Arsenal FC Manager. According to BPL official website, Arsene Wenger awarded manager of the month is due to the excellent performance in BPL. In February, Arsenal FC was unbeaten in BPL and they have successfully achieves the 4th place. 

Sources:

Arsenal Official Website & BPL official website

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