Words in my heart

Wow…time passed so fast! It comes to the month of May.  I just realized that I have not updated my blog for around 3 months. I still remember the reasons I start to write this blog, the reasons are improve my English and sharing. However, I don’t share much things especially my personal matters in this blog.

Today, I would like to share the word in my heart. This month is the third months that I start my new life which is society life. During these months, I have met lot things and I have a lot of feeling want to share but I don’t know who the right person I should share with its. In my working places, I have saw a lot of people resign within these months and some of them who are more close to me also plan to resign as they think the work is too much and the company only paid low salary to them and some of them just sub their works to other people. This make them can’t finish their works and they need do free overtime. I can feel that the feeling in my working place is not good, which this also affect my working mood.  

Next, is my life in my church. Since, I had rejoined the church movements I found that I can’t have the life that I want anymore. What is my life that I want in my church? It is very easy, I only want to become the member only, I don’t want to become any committee anymore! I have rejoined altar servers that I had left it one year ago and after I rejoined the matter that I don’t want had come which one of the senior asked me to join the senior committee. Besides that, in Legion Mary I have been assigned to organize Easter party at 9 April and help them to organize a conference. At first, I think this is ok for me however, I have started received stress from the advisor as he want to start to become leader again after I have success organized the Easter party and today I have received a call that there are one church activity at June, they have asked me to help. The most interesting is I don’t know the organizers. This totally not the life that I want!! I only want to become a member and just join any activities if I free.

Lastly, are my personal matters. In these months, I still meet one problem which is I still not dare to drive the car. I need to depend my family to fetch me to work, church even meet my friends! This had made me very inconvenience as I can’t go out as I want and my parents will ask me not to go.  I really don’t know why I will feel nervous and afraid once I want start to drive. Thanks god that I finally make my first step to drive at around my house areas in 1 May, but the afraid and nervous feeling still in my heart. I hope that this will be good start for me. Moreover, my brother had started working this year. Sometimes, my mum asks me to let my brother to do the things he wants so that he will not resign.  As an example, I need depart to office a little big late (still can arrive office on time) so that he will not arrive his office too early! This will make me feel unfair as I have my on jobs to do so that I need go office earlier.

Furthermore, I also miss my university life very much especially few week ago my friends have make gathering together to help other friends to celebrate birthday.  I really miss my university life because during the time we always have fun together such as play dota, have lunch and dinner, attend class, join club, organized club activities, go to Macdonald or lok lok at midnight time and many others. I think that all the words in my heart that I want to share it! I really don’t know want to share these with who, so I choose to share it at here!