Sad Feeling

In the first day of new semester, I already have a sad feeling. The reason that I have this feeling was I don’t get the post that I dreamed.  After I think for one day, I think the main reason may be is my fault. This is because I didn’t think carefully before I submit it last time. In addition, until yesterday morning I just realized that I had done big wrong decision and this may make me loss the post that I dreamed. When the result was announced, I found that what I have worried had become true and at that time I really feel disappointed and feel very sad until now. The reason that I feel very sad is not only I don’t get the post I want,  it’s also include that the post that I dream for so long time was go to ones of my best friend. Another reason that I think is may be due to I really don’t have the capability for the post and they may think my friend is more suitable for the post. I really hate myself at that time why I will done such wrong decision and why I still remember this until now. Anyway, I feel happy for my friend and hope he will done well which this will prove that he is suitable for the post. I will also continue to do the job as best as I can that I need to be responsible for it and I hope I will forget the sad feeling as soon as possible.